We were supposed to go back home yesterday. Instead, Ola received a call and we went back to Berlin. Not that I am complaining, Berlin is like a lover, out of the ordinary, only good stuff and none of the anxiety that comes with long term relationships. However, it is frustrating that I miss NIN 3 times in just a couple of days. They played in London May 13, in Berlin May 15 and we left Berlin for London the 14th. Well, well, nothing to do but go on…

I got new shoes today, since my previous ones was crumbling away. Shoe shopping is not what it used to be. It used to be very exciting, high heels, different colours and materials, but now it’s “what do I need? -comfortable, every day flat shoes, lets find that and nothing else” so the really fun stores I don’t get into and I don’t even glance at the high heels. But since I stopped leisure shopping, I don’t have anxiety attacks every time I buy anything. It’s better, I feel cleaner. I did, however, buy 3 bug pendants which are very pretty.

London was nice too. I have finally come to terms with that city (which used to come with the anxiety that comes with long term relationships) and think of visiting very much like I think of visiting my parents’ house. I love to visit, I enjoy my time, but I would never want to live there. This time we stayed at the . Normally, Ola stays at a small hotel close to Russel Square, but since it wasn’t much more expensive he decided it was due time for an upgrade. Which I’m veer glad for, since St Pancras is, by far, the most impressive hotel I’ve ever been in. The room looked very much like any other hotel room, but it gives a certain feeling to walk into a building that from the outside looks like a castle. And London was nice to, showing off with warm weather without being clammy. Strolled in Camden and Soho, enjoyed good food and drinks and went to my first organ concert ever at . An old friend of mine is had a rehearsal there for her and played 5 composers during an hour. I really liked the part by , probably because it sounded like a black and withe horror movie.

And now we are back here in Berlin again. It’s as grey and damp as when we left. And now I don’t have access to a lounge with free coffee. On the other hand, I’m now 5 min walk from Alexanderplatz